A man on myspace wrote this: hmmmm......................Im stuck between words, never getting out what I mean to say. Nothing has changed. everything has been the same. These memories are passing and thers nothing I can do , becasue there already gone. Cant stop this feeling, this repulsive feeling of breaking down. No ones ever known me like this, so soft and innocent, this isnt me, I have my inner thoughts too. I just dont want anyone to hear them, thats probably why Im like this. But who Gives a fuck. Im in a hole, pour the dirt over me, bury me alive, I probably deserve it. Hurting the people I trust and cherish the most. Lost and found, nothing for me to see. Everything has been done, why should I do it all again. I dont want to. My tears and speeches arnt going to help anyone anymore. Im through. Fuck it. Might as well; turn of the light, let the darkness consume me. time to go back home, where I belong. IS he writing about: A.) The girlfriend he left behind in his own state when he moved to another and started having relationship problems partly because of B.) A girl he befriended in his new state and started a un-official romantic relationship but was just as he put it "leading her on" Who is he writing about? Or is he writing about someone else entirely. One girl he said he'll always love and the other he used when she thought she was in love. THE ULTIMATE QUESTION IS WTF GOES ON IN MEN'S MINDS?!?!?!

Wishing for more: ashes to ashes and dust to dust
I lie because I know I must
I love you
I want you to hold me here tight
but I know our love just isn't right
you kiss me you hug me but you lie to me too
my friends hate you now and I don't know what to do
I try to move on, but I keep looking back
I'm wound so tight I know I'm going to crack.
i look into your eyes and see your soul
your the only person who made me feel whole
I felt safe when I was around you
but I should have known that none of it was true
you're a liar and you used me and I just have to learn
that when you get too close to the sun you're only gunna burn
and i'm burning inside when I see your warm smile
I wish I could just have no heart for a while
everybody says you're no good for me
but I guess that nobody else can see
when you laugh every laughs right a long
you make me feel like nothing's ever wrong
but now I have to forget everything
but without you I can't ever feel anything
I have to leave those feelings behind
but thoughts of you keep plagueing my mind
I hate you, I HATE YOU
but I know I love you too
and I know that I was just a fling
that you used me as though I was some mindless thing
a part of me resents you completely
but I can't help keep looking your way, discreetly
my heart feels sick just looking at your face
when I see you I turn around and quicken my pace
I can't trust myself around you anymore
I know we are friends...but I can't help but want more.

Music: Pink Floyd-Dark Side of the Moon (almost was gunna do the wall) Mood: tired, sick and pissed. Wearing: why do you wanna know? pervert...>.< Anyways I'm like dying. I don't know what's wrong with me I was like *puke,nearly faint, fever and tired* last night. Meh. I have crew again today and tomorrow I'm going to freaking die and haunt Mrs. G and the PAC forever. X3 yeah. So I am a hyper dying person. Rafael C. and Sarah N. can die a painful death involving blenders and chees-graters (sp?) lol.

I promised a good friend tyo advertise her quizilla quizzes so take these Hiei quiz/story thingies:

Take the quiz: [url=http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=735]Which God or Goddess are you? [img]http://img1.zenhex.com/quiz1/735/res5.jpg[/img][/url] [b]God of Beautiful Death[/b] Elegant, regal, and beautiful. You accept death for what it is, and unavoidable part of life. You sometimes feel higher than others, more mature or sane, and tend to wear dresses and skirts if your a girl or when you are feeling dark maybe a hoodie or baggie pants, or black shirts if you're a boy. You bring those who have died a peaceful death to their resting place.

Take the quiz: [url=http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=1462]What Kind of Soul Do You Retain? [img]http://img1.zenhex.com/quiz1/1462/res1.jpg[/img][/url] [b]Free[/b] You have an open heart and open mind and you chose not to let anyone get to you and the way you want to live.

Oh and Kt I got the bad boy one too X3 you goot admit guys with a motorcycle and a thirst for mischeif is SEXY HOTT!

You're Exotic Dancer Barbie. You have some moves,
and will do anything for a few bucks. Take it
off girl, but keep it PG-13 please.

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
brought to you by Quizilla

The Goddess of Night and Regret. You are a perfect
confidante. Always understanding and
solicitous, you could be a queen and you are
exceptionally honest. You are an intelligent
beauty.

Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
brought to you by Quizilla